Erica's Dentist visit

2 months ago, we took Erica to the Dentist for the first time. It was something i was dreading and putting off the longest time. I just knew she wouldnt handle it well, and i was right.. She cried and cried and cried.. she wanted nothing to do with the dentist, We walked out of there, 6 cavities later, a grumpy child, and a new appointment to get her teeth fixed that would cost $1400. Lucky me, right? So, after 2 months, and finally getting on CHIP to help with the bill, we went in today on July, 20 2011 at 6:15 in the morning. I was scared shitless on how the morning would go. Erica is not a morning person. She doesnt get up until 10 so i knew waking her up at 6 was going to be hell... but fortunatley, she woke up really well and was ready to go. We got to the dentist office, they weighed her, then gave her a "special drink" that would help her relax. She played on the computer games they have there, and then the dentist came out and gave her a shot, she cried for about 20 seconds and then she said "Look at all the little chairs" and then was out cold. It was real scary for me because she was asleep, but her eyes were wide open. The dentist took her back, and thats when my tears came rolling. I wanted to go back there with her. How do they feel ok taking someones child away like that and not let the mother be with them. I hated it. We waited, and waited, and waited.. 50 minutes felt like 50 days. They finally came out and told us she was ready. She was still "asleep" when we went back and they gave us instructions and Zach held her until she woke up. They told us the whole time during the procedure she was doing this gagging/choking thing that they wanted to watch to make sure when she woke up she wasnt still doing it. Then they put her on a monitor to see her heart rate and oxygen level, They had us put an oxygen mask on her.. This totally freaked me out.. ive never had to do anything like this with Erica before and i felt like my heart was going to jump out of my chest. When she finally started to wake up, she was acting really weird and i couldnt help but laugh. She said and did things that made me know my baby girl was going to be ok. It was such a relief when she said her favorite color is PINK. We got the ok to go home, zach put her in the car, and walked away to get in and she toppled over. We got home and tried to get her to lay down and rest, but she just kept trying to get up. She was still way out of it and they told us not to let her walk on her own for 6 hours. It was a task to get her to understand she couldnt get up. Once she was with it enough, we told her to crawl around like a baby so she wouldnt fall. After 5 hours, and laying down watching Blues Clues, She was back to her normal self. I am so thankful everything went ok. Im sure some people are saying "how could you let her get 6 cavities" and honestly, i felt like the worst mother ever to let it happen, but she's a kid, she's going to eat candy, and sweets and i take blame.. i didnt have the best teeth growing up, and im sure that has something to do with it. So for all you people who are giving me crap or thinking that im a bad mom, you all can suck it! :)

I want to thank Zach for being such a good dad and ALWAYS being there for his kids, no matter what.. Every doctors appointment, every special event, he is always right there. since day 1. I can honestly say that i couldnt have gotten any luckier choosing a father for my children. If it wasnt for him today, being there with me, i probably would have lost it :)

I also have a video of Erica waking up on my facebook, check it out :)

Good Byes are never Easy

I know Death is a part of this crazy life.. but it doesnt make it any easier when you loose someone that holds a special place in your heart. I have been blessed to have met one of the most crazy, fun, sweet girl i will ever meet. She was taken away from this crazy world this past Sunday. Words can not explain the pain i felt once i found out. She was too young. She was 25. She had her whole life ahead of her. It just isnt fair. Although, she is now resting in peace with her baby boy, i feel she deserved a 2nd chance at her life. I will never forget her beautiful smile and amazing laugh. I will never forget coming into work when she was here and seeing the love she had in her heart. She made work fun, She made me smile when all i wanted to do was cry. She would always have a smile on her face even though i knew she was hurting inside.
May you rest in peace my dear Rosie. I will never forget you and all the great things you did for everyone around you. I love you and ill see you again.

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Time to Update!

Its been a few months since i have blogged.. i just haven't been into it lately.. There has been so much going on though.. and im sure i will forget to mention something..
So, as of right now....

My girls are doing great! Kelsey is now 10 months old and she is just starting to take a few steps! She is getting so close to walking on her own! And it is scaring the heck out of me! I am terrified for when she gets older and her and Erica run around.. I better stock up on bandaids and neosporin :( She has had some problems with her ears.. She had a ruptured ear drum over a month ago and some infections.. but she is all better now.. I never even knew she had a problem with her ear until AFTER it ruptured.. She is such a happy baby and hardly ever fusses unless she's hungry or tired. She is a GREAT sleeper! she sleeps anywhere from 10-12 hours a night.. and not one peep!! I have always hated the cry it out method and was totally against it at some points.. but i truly believe it is the only thing that works and i would be a very exhausted mommy if we didn't go through with it! I have caught her climbing up our stairs, so we have invested in a baby gate! She is such a stinker!! She absolutely LOVES her big sister.. They are just so cute together.

Here is my favorite picture of her as of today. .  I am hoping she will start growing some hair.. Erica had a bunch of hair at this age.. And Kelsey hates bows and headbands.. she always pulls them off! :(


Erica is also doing great.. We took her to her first dentist appointment a few weeks ago.. It was kind of a nightmare.. She didn't like it at all! We ended up leaving there with a crying 3 year old with 6 cavities and a huge dentist bill.. We have to go back once we figure out how were going to pay for all the work that needs to be done.. Im so not looking forward to it :( She is such a smart girl. I have registered her to start preschool in August at the Washington City Community Center. I am so excited/nervous. I just don't want my girls growing up anymore!! Erica has been an AMAZING big sister. She always helps us with her and i am so very proud of her. I couldn't have asked for better children.

I have gotten the Paragaurd IUD a couple months ago.. I really want to have another baby soon, we want to try for a boy.. But we just have to keep reminding ourselves that we REALLY cant have another one for a while. We have so much to do to our house which means thats where all of our money needs to go to. I was hoping to have our backyard done by this time.. but my husband has been rather lazy and nothing is getting done!
We are taking the girls to San Diego in a couple weeks. We are going with my mother in law and our roommate Brooks. We are so excited! I have never been to San Diego before and i have been begging Zach to take me there since before we got married. We are only going for the weekend, but im pretty sure thats a long enough vacation with my 3 year old and 10 month old.. i might come back with gray hair! :/

Welp.. Thats about all that has been going on.. We're still working a lot and just trying to live every day to the fullest. Things have never been better. We are happy and thats all that matters to me :)

Things with my photography are going great.. make sure you "like" my photography page too!

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New week.. New me

so here is my weekly update..
Im going to be honest.. this HCG diet is the hardest thing i have ever done. You are basically starving yourself but take some drops to make is so is burns the fat instead of storing it.. Its a very very very strict diet.. you basically cant eat anything but chicken and white fish.. plain... with veggies.. plain.. and only a selected fruit.. thats it.. Its giving me major headaches.. i get so mad when i cant eat anything. especially when im fixing lunch or dinner for other people. Its been horrible at work because i cant munch on stuff like i used to (which is why i got this way in the first place) Its over all been the worst thing ever. BUT........

I have lost 12lbs... yes 12lbs in 5 days! crazy right? i know. I still have a loooong way to go. but honesly.. i dont know how much longer i can do this for. if i could just lose 15 more pounds.. i would be happy.. not as happy as i would be if i lost 40 more.. but still.. i have learned how to eat better and watch my portions...
its been the best/worst thing i have ever done.

I finally got the IUD on friday. This is the first time that i have been commited to a birth control in 7 years. But honestly, me and zach had a scare last month that i could have been pregnant again.. and there is nooooo way i want another baby right now.. So we decided it was time for me to get the stupid IUD. I went in there.. dead tired from working the night before.. i was alone.. the nurse told me how it was going to happen and i was soooo scared.. i wish zach was there to hold my hand because holy crap it hurt!! BUT now i dont have to worry about having anymore babies for a LONG time! :)

My brother came to town this weekend.. I LOVE when he comes to visit. We always have a blast when he's here. Him and my sister in law are so fun to be around :) We went to mesquite friday night and gambled a while.. i lost some money and i just wanted to go home, i was tired.. crampy from the IUD. and getting grumpy because i was so hungry. SOOO.. my mom told me to play her machine while she went and played another one. i sat there.. and the 2nd hand i played i won $500! it was pretty awesome and turned my night around.

On Saturday, My father in law came over and we started working on our backyard! im soooo excited to get a nice backyard for the girls to play :) Its going to be a lot of work.. but we are going to make it look nice.. Heres some before pictures and i will make sure i post some after pictures.

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There were a TON of these huge rocks in the back.

Cant wait til the finishing product :)

I am also starting my photography business. i did a great photoshoot on Friday and i have also made a new photography blog that i will be posting as soon as i get some pictures up.. (within the next couple days) So keep a look out!


Oh. and here is a picture of my beautiful girls..
Could they get any cuter???

Here we go again.....

I have been struggling with diets and losing weight on my own. So I decided to try the hcg diet. I am at the heaviest I have ever been in my life (thanks kids). I just got my drops and all the goodies yesterday, so here I go.. Day 1 of this miserable diet. I better stick to it!!
I will try to update weekly!

Here's to being skinny again!!

Photography!

I have been so interested in starting my own business lately.. I am getting my own website up for making all kinds of baby items.. its not all the way done yet.. but my husband is doing a great job at getting it there. Im also going to start doing some photography on the side. I have a couple of photoshoots coming up in the next couple weeks that im super excited for! i cant wait to learn more about my camera and learn more editing skills. I also just bought a sewing machine so i can start making things..

This is what im looking forward to the most....

Baby Dannika's photo shoot!

Kelsey 6 months

Kelsey is now 6 months old! That's half way to a year!!
We took her to the doctor today.. I told the doctor that she just has no interest at all in rolling over. She just doesnt roll over. So she tried getting her to roll over and she said that its not that she cant, because she is perfectly strong enough too.. she just doesnt want to.. what a little stinker. We also told her that she is still waking up every 2 hours at night and asked what she thought we should do.. and unfortunatly, it looks like were going to have to try the Cry It Out method.. :(
She is now able to sit up with no support at all.
She is reaching for EVERYTHING.
She still LOVES bath time.
She eats a ton. She likes all kinds of fruits and veggies and she gets so mad when you stop feeding her.
She always smiles.. And has theeee cutest smile ever.
She has a little freckle on her leg :)