Half Way Mark

20 weeks is finally here. It feels like i have been waiting forever for this week so we could finally find out what were having. We went to the doctor this morning, but unfortunatly, the little stinker was shy and wouldnt let us see anything. I was totally bummed. Dr. Astle said that he didnt see any "boy parts" so he's thinking its a girl, but he also said "dont go out and buy girl clothes just yet". He wants to do another ultrasound, not just to check for the sex again, but to check and see if my placenta has moved. That will happen in about 8 weeks. So for right now, when people asks me what im having, im just going to say "we think a girl, but not 100% sure". Everything looked good though. My iron was low so they want me to take an iron supplement. and i actually gained 1 pound! My blood pressure was super high when i got there but i think it was just because i was so anxious to see my baby on that monitor.
 So.. 20 weeks.. and im feeling pretty good. Other than the cold that has been going on in my family for the last 3 weeks. Every once in a while i will get a little heartburn. and my lower back starts to hurt when i do all the housework (which Zach and Erica make it impossible to help me out and pick up after themselves)
I get headaches everyday. Sometimes i get soooo hungry, even after i just ate a big meal. Ive been craving alot of spicy stuff. I cant seem to stop drinking soda. My boobs STILL havent gotten any bigger (but they never did with erica either). Im feeling the baby move alot more now, which always puts a smile on my face.
Ive been such an emotional wreck sometimes, but i tend to hide it around family. I feel like no one cares to help me out around home, or how hard it is when Erica is so clingy to me and i cant even put her down. I hardly get any sleep, and i always have to be the one that keeps up with laundry, dishes, vacuuming, feeding Erica, changing Erica, getting her dressed, etc. Its so tiring and i dont know how im going to do all that when im further along. On Saturday, i cried to my mom how exhausted i was and i just needed a whole day to myself. She took Erica all day and all night and i didnt do anything but lay in bed and watch TV. It made me feel so much better, but now im just back to feeling drained. I dont know how im going to do it with 2 kids.(3 if you count zach) Erica has been acting very clingy to me. Everytime the new baby is mentioned, or if im not paying 100% attention to her, she will start freaking out until i "hold her like a baby" and then she will start sucking her thumb (which she was NEVER a thumb sucker) so im afraid we might have a little problem when baby #2 comes around.
Until next time......