A Mothers Love

I just spent the last hour reading a blog about a child who had drowned in the bath tub. You might have heard the story. His name was Bronson. I highly suggest everyone to read this story through and appreciate what you have in life. HERE is his story.

I cried my eyes out reading the story and the whole time i was just thinking to myself "What if that was Erica?" Which made me cry even more. This little boy drowned in the bathtub, while his mom just ran out of the room for a minute (something i am guilty of). It really makes you think that ANYTHING could happen, at ANYTIME. Ever since Erica was born, i have always been terrified of something tragic happening to my little girl. My biggest fear lately, is her running out into the street and getting hit, and honestly, its something that i wake up in the middle of the night from dreaming about.
I have always hated how "over pretective" my mother was growing up. Now i understand, now that im a mother myself. She lost a child in a car accident, of course she was always worried something bad would happen to me. Now i get it. Now im the "over protective mother" who is terrified of her doing anything physical because im afraid she's going to fall and break something. Or hates when she eats candy or certain food because i dont want her to choke. Im still the mother that walks in when she's sleeping and make sure she's still breathing. Im scared to leave her overnight, and i always have my phone right next to me in case something happens, and when my phone actually rings im scared its bad news.
Im also the kind of mother who takes things for granted, until now. I am so blessed that Erica was born healthy, and hasnt had any major problems. I am so blessed that she wakes up in the morning with a smile on her face ready to terrorize my house every day. She is amazing in so many ways and i dont think Zach and I really understand how lucky we are. And i hope one day we will never have to be in a position where we would never see our baby girl again.
LIke Sara (the mother of Bronson) said :

"For now, please hug your babies a little tighter...

Give your children a little extra squeeze...

Be a little more patient and diligent

and a little less distracted by the things that will wait until later.

Embrace the things that matter most!

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Life is so fragile...

We are holding onto it for now."

 

 

 I love my little girl more than anything in this world. I would give my life for her. 

Week 24

I went to the doctor on Thursday. I gained 2lbs and my iron level went back up. I heard the baby's heartbeat and my doctor told me im measuring a week over, but he will see about changing my due date when i have my ultrasound next month. He sent me home with the glucose drink that i have to drink an hour before my next appointment to test for gestational diabetes. (kinda nervous about that) . We scheduled my ultrasound for May 7th. I cant wait!! im really hoping this baby will cooperate this time and let us see. I really need to get a move on buying stuff and setting up the room. Im starting to really want another girl more and more. We have been thinking about names but we havent really came to a decision yet. but there are a few that we like. Ive been feeling pretty good. I dont really have any complaints yet.. but im sure that will change once i start getting into my third trimester. This baby sure is an active little one. its always moving and loves to kick me right in the bladder. Zach finally felt a little kick the other night. I have a Posterior placenta so its harder for him to feel the baby move.

I hate the dentist!!

Ever since i was a little kid i have always hated the dentists. I didnt get braces until i was 19. and didnt get my wisdom teeth pulled until just last year. For the last few months i have had the worst toothache ever. and i just couldnt handle it anymore. i knew that i had to get in before it got worse. So i made an appointment for today and i went in. I ended up having 2 holes in 2 of my back teeth and decay was down really deep almost to the nerve. I got them cleaned, and got a filling on them. It was so painful. i was in tears! They were able to numb me, but it still felt like i could feel everything, so they numbed me again. But yet, it still hurt so bad. He told me that the fillings should work just fine but because the decay was so deep, it might be possible that i will have to get 2 root canals in those teeth. so im crossing my fingers that these work. He also said that i need to start flossing, (which is something i dont do ) He didnt give me any pain meds because i cant take them anyway. So i will be loading up with tylenol every 4 hours. And i hope ill be able to sleep tonight!

Easter 2010

This Easter we spent most of our time at my mother in laws house. On Friday we went and colored some eggs and then went to dinner at the Brick Oven. Then after Zach got off work on Sunday, we headed over there to have a BBQ and have Erica do a little Easter egg hunt. Zach's mom had Erica on Saturday so she took her to the park and they had a big Easter egg hunt for kids (pictures of that are on my facebook). It was a good Easter and Erica had a lot of fun. I forgot to take a picture of the basket i got her, but she got a new My little Pony toy, with some extras too it, some candy, coloring books, crayons, and a new outfit. Enjoy the pictures!